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I am thankful for this simple stress free day ... the best part was having coffee and toasted bread while listening to the chirping of the birds ... simple joys of life ....
Today I was in cloud 9 because of the good reviews I recieved from my Mentor, Tita A.... she was my first headwriter, confidante and Mom rolled into one. There was a time we parted ways when i decided to take a back seat due to matters of the heart, and eventually started a family life. And when we she moved to a different network we seldom saw each other but the love did not falter.
This year i had issues with my network who treated me badly. And just like a wounded daughter , i ran to her waiting arms for comfort and strength. Indeed she welcomed me to her team and fought for me .
I may years of writing experience and an award to boot but the best reward ever was to hear her say " that was a good script and I AM BACK ! "
Love u Tita A....
Day started out late as both julia and I tried to put in a few more time lying in bed this lazy sat morning. We finally got our butts moving for a quick trip to the grocery to buy stuff and my korea-novela series .....
Thank you for this relaxing day and try to be as worry free as possible. Tom is a brand new day as we look forward to breakfast with my siblings .....another bonding time for julia and i with my family ...
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Today i went to my MBAP Creative Mtg to discuss story for upcoming weeks. Admittedly, i am a bit wary because upto now i am.still waiting for my next assignment, not to mention my pay .... and when they said that there's a possibility that the show might be cut short the more i became nervous because this is technically my bread and butter. I guess this is where faith should set in. Learn to trust and believe that good things will come... we just have to believe.
So for now i am thankful that i have a show to write .... show to be proud of and show to hold on to .... thanks to Tita A and to the bes creative team Gin, Glay, Bel, Paul, Jessie and Patrick !!!!!
I have been feeling the blues from time to time like a roller coaster ride for quite sometime now. From the day i was ordered bed rest by my doctor upto this minute where i lay wide awake beside my princess, sadness sets in... when i told hubby i feel.depressed and he asked me why, i couldn't give a clear answer.... if you think about i have no reason to feel sad, and more importantly i have no reason to feel depressed compared to the victims of super typhoon yolanda or with what an officemate is going thru right now, spending 55 days in the hospital due.to her hubby's illness .... but i cant hide or deny it, bec bottomline is i am not happy with where i am right now ... i am just hoping and praying that I'm just going thru a phase, and that sooner or later,.things will be better again ....
I know i shouldn't feel sad at all bec I am lucky and blessed that we we're not affected by the super typhoon, and that me and my familg is in the best of health but cant seem to shake off the blues away ...
Lord I pray for good days to come ...
Its 4:15am and i'm still wide awake, the downside of resigning from my day job, my insomia came back. Just when i've lessen my coffee and soda in take , the caffeine in my system seems to be working overtime.
Being awake the whole night makes me realize the importance of living healthy ... makes me commit to loose weight so i can enjoy life with my hubby and princess .
So starting today its going to be a lifestyle change for me. I know its not easy but i will have to do it one day at a time. This will be my mantra, my christmas gift to myself and my family . PROMISE
I went to Pizza Hut for a quick snack after doing errands when a rich looking family ( the couple were busy playing w/ their gadgets while waiting for their orders) sat right nexr to my table.
I noticed that the Lola handed over her senior citizen card along with her payment for her order in advance and the Daddy accepted it w/o hesitation. I couldn't help but wish i wont experience the same treatment from my love ones when i grow old. Pains to see that the young Dad could not even cover the P99 meal for the lola of the family .... hay .... pagdating nga naman sa bayaran walang magulang !
I've been praying for the past couple of days to give me the strength to make the Big Leap of Faith @ 40, to let go of the day job / call center job and concentrate on writing and business. I just need to talk to Tita A for confirmation and I'm almost there ... Tom I should make the right decision .
It's 2:20 am and I am still wide awake. I am not sure if its the caffeine overload or i just have tons of things in my mind ...You see i have made a big switch by transfering to GMA early this month and since then I have wrote a whole week worth of script. Though it may not be the best script to impress the big bosses but at least its a start ....
Now I find myself in a crossroad again, to go back to work next week or to pursue full time.writing and just to guide julia since she's having a hard time in school lately... and the biggest factor is when she asks me not to go back to.work anymore. It pains my heart to leave her in the mornings again... and there's a big thug when she says " sa house na lang si mommu, magsulat na lang si Mommy " . How I wish I can Just give in just like that.
That's why I've been praying all night for guidance and strength to take the Big Leap... I know all I have to do is trust and The Lord will help and guide me to the Right Path
After being treated badly by my CDG Group and after series of disappointments, i finally found the courage to take the Big Leap and transfer networks. It's scary leaving your comfort zone, starting anew especially if your not young anymore but once you are treated badly you owe it to yourself to look for better opportunities and move on.
I'm very lucky there are friends willing to help and welcome me with arms wide. Full of love and support, the fears and uncertainties slowly vanished. Its still a long way to go but I'm looking forward to this new journey ... but for now, let's start the pen moving !!
They say it comes in three's ... First the miscarriage, then the resources , now I've been taken out of the CDG bec I couldnt attend the meetings bec i was on leave ...
Sabi nila Kapamilya ka pero bakit balewale trato nila ...
Its 2:45 am and i am still wide awake . I dont know if its because the glass of coke i drank before bedtime or my mind is just working overtime with ideas.
I'm excited and at the same time scared about a new business venture me and my gifted yaya Bem would like to try. With the help of some friends and families, we'll try our hand in baking and selling cupcakes. My ever reliable and generous highschool friends are nice enough by lending not only their trusted recipes but as well as oven for the said endeavor. My gut feel tells me this will be a big hit that"s probably why my mind is so fired up..
How i wish the excitement fades out so i can now fall asleep
It's Saturday and we woke up extra early due to the noisy constructions a couple of yards away. This pissed us off because started as early as 7am.... The only consolation is i can hear the chirping of the birds as well which we seldom hear in this modern day and time. Makes me smile and appreciate life more...
Its almost midnite and the tears now start to fall and i cant seem to stop them.. For the first time after my miscarriage i am grieving for the little one i have just lost.. There are no more hushed requests to help mommy be well as we start the day, or make mommy sleep as early as 8:30pm. No more excuses for pastas or sweets... because my baby is gone ... bye my little one, mommy loves you !
Ive been looking for thw best blogger app so i can stay connected. Lets see if this Blogaway will do the job ...
Thanks to our reliable ate bem we have a makeshift lamp :)
It's been raining two straight nights and couldn't help but feel gloomy. Wish the rains would stop so i can sleep peacefully :)
I dont like the sound of continous rain during the night. It scares the hell out of me :(
I've been a customer of this Pares House for a year now and nothing beats the original still.... they're so stable and good , the In and Out Steak house right beside closed shop ...
I wanted to have a big party for my princess but she insisted to have a swimming party with her cousins :)
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If i needed some time and space,I would head off to the nearest starbucks where i could write the time away with.my.tea
