Feeling the Blues... When will this stop ?

They say it comes in three's ... First the miscarriage, then the resources , now I've been taken out of the CDG bec I couldnt attend the meetings bec i was on leave ...

Sabi nila Kapamilya ka pero  bakit  balewale trato nila ...

Cant Sleep... My Mind's Working

Its 2:45 am and i am still wide awake . I dont know if its because the glass of coke i drank before bedtime or my mind is just working overtime with ideas.

I'm excited and at the same time scared about a new business venture me and my gifted yaya Bem  would like to try. With the help of some friends and families, we'll try our hand in baking and selling cupcakes. My ever reliable and generous highschool friends are nice enough by lending not only their trusted recipes but as well as oven for the said endeavor. My gut feel tells me this will be a big hit  that"s probably why my mind is so fired up..
How i wish the excitement fades out so i can now fall asleep

Back to Work

My first scheduled creative meeting after a long break

Good Morning !

It's Saturday and we woke up extra early due to the noisy constructions  a couple of yards away.  This pissed us off because started as early as 7am.... The only consolation is i can hear the chirping of the birds as well which we seldom hear  in this modern day and time. Makes me smile and appreciate life more...

My 2 Month Bucket List

Since I'm technically out of work for 2 months I might as well set up things to accomplish to get me going.... 1. Set up Financial Plan for the next 2 months 2. Coop Update 3. Set up Cupcake business for Joan 4. Set up Traldj business. 5. Segregate Files. 6. Julia's scrap book 7. Weekend vacation I'm aiming to accomplish at least 4 out 6 tasks... Let's see how far I can go :)

Getting Over It and Moving On

Just got home from the hospital and waiting for Princess to come home from school, thankful that I've got some time and space for myself... I need this ... I hope this will be the last time I will be pouring my thoughts about what I've went thru the past 2 weeks ... it was not easy ... I knew when I heard My OB/Ate Cynthia asked " Gusto nyo pa bang magka baby?" I was in for the bad news (as if Losing my Little Angel is not enough) My reproductive system is not as perfect as it used to be since I've got Myomas around my uterus. At first I was not alarmed when I learned about it because I knew these were common and can go away in time or during pregnancy but due to my recent miscarriage, apparently, the myomas could've aggravated the situation and worse may give the same result if I try to get pregnant again... so in other words there is no assurance I wont suffer the same fate if I conceive again in the future. Warning Bells start to ring and ultimately, Hubby and I will have to forego of our dream of having another baby. Technically, its a double whammy for me, I've lost my little one and would be too risky to have another one in the future..... At least the tears are gone now and I can move on and accept the things I can never have.... TIME TO GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON .... Life is still beautiful, Keep the Faith because I know despite all these, God truly loves ME !

Pls Stop The Tears

Its almost midnite and the tears now start to fall and i cant seem to stop them.. For the first time after my miscarriage i am grieving for the little one i have just lost..  There are no more hushed requests to help mommy be well as we start the day, or make mommy sleep as early as 8:30pm. No more excuses for pastas or sweets... because my baby is gone ...   bye my little one, mommy loves you !

Happy Sunday

Need i say more????