It's Monday morning, just had my cup of coffee and a slice of bread.... i've got the house to myself until my little princess woke up... so now i'm sharing the house w/ her and barney.
And yes, its the first day of the week and yet here i am at home... no i'm not lucky that i got the day off ( how i wish)... but instead, i'm home because i'm sick, again. Two weeks ago i was down with acute sinusitis and bronchitis and had to rest for a couple of days but due to lack of finances, i was not able to complete the prescribed dosage of antibiotics. I thought i was strong enough and could manage to bounce back but due to old age and stress, here i am again coughing my lungs out, and worse with a higher dosage of meds and not to mention more expensive. My bosses are not happy with my current state, and i'm sure i wont be happy either when i see my paycheck (although i stil have my sick leave credits i will no longer be eligible for the attendance incentive )
So how am i doing right now ??? I'm sick and tired ..... i guess the reason why i'm getting more sickly is because i am really stressed out... drained out is a more appropriate word to describe how i feel . I am drained physically, emotionally, spiritual and financially. Its very difficult trying to be strong for everybody to keep you afloat but when you get tired and wants to rest, there's no one you can turn to to help you out. i've come to a point of seriously thinking of letting go.... hoping that if i finally let go, i could rest and gather my bearings....
but how does one let go ?
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