When Your Little Girl Cries ....

Yesterday when I came home from doing errands my Little Princess greeted me with tears  of frustrations when she showed my her scores from her 3rd quarter Exam. She was so worried all she could say was I'm sorry Mommy repeatedly for not getting goid grades. And when hubby came home from work the more disappointed and scared she was, crying more openly. Instead of getting angry and scolding her, i gave her a Big Hug to assure her she is loved no matter what. We also agreed to cut down play time and to study harder so we can get better grades next time.

It breaks our heart to see our daughter in tears ... you could feel her pain in not being able to deliver what is expected. You can feel the low self esteem  and disappointment in her , and to think she's just 8 years old and kids her age should be carefree and having fun .

It is never easy to see your little one crying...  as my moms would only say, if i could do things for you and take the pai  away.... but little girls need to cry too they would learn from their mistakes and frustrations in life .... they need to shed a tear or two so mommies can give them a big hug and let them know they are loved, no matter what .

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Old friends are such a Treasure

The other while i was sick and in pain due to pharyngitis and asthma i posted or should i say ranted how expensive my meds were. To get well i actually need to shell out something like P2000 for all the meds prescribed by the doctored. For someone  who works on  a project basis, 2k   is such a big amount to spare. The status i posted in FB was just to share me sentiments.

Unexpectedly, someone across the globe an old college friend read my post and offered to send meds for my asthma. An unsolicitated gesture (pardon me for not thinking of a better term) that touched my deepest core because i haven't seen or heard from  my college for more than 20 years now. It amazes me how old friends would reach out and show kindness when you least expected it.

And to my dear au dalisay of UST AB 1A, you are truly a blessing from above. Thank you for yhe gift of friendship.. May God bless you more and more !

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Thankful for Deadlines ...

Just survived writing 4 days worth of script in 2 days time... it wasnt my best work but hey only a few can deliver in such circumstances .. i just hope my bosses will read beyond the typo errors and slips ..

More importantly Thank you for the pressing, toxic and almost imposible deadlines because it means i have work and people believe in what I do..

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My CDG FAMILY

Celebrated a wonderful Christmas gimmick with My CDG Friends ! Miss u guys !!!

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Goals for 2014

Its almost.1:30am and here i am again, couldnt sleep... so instead of staring at the ceiling, i mustered enough courage to go down grab a bite and blog the time away...

There are a thousand one things i'd like to do but dont know where to start.. ironically when you have time in your hands you tend to procastinate.. so to remedy this problem i've decided to come.up with my goals for 2014!

For on the list is the commitment to be deligent to abide to my priority list wether its as basic as my to do list or grocery list or as challenging as my budget list. If i can master this skill and discipline myself then i have bigger chances of  achieving my other goals... they say one should start somewhere .

Next on my list is to loose weight bigtime... as in loose 50lbs which is a difficult task but not impossible. This requires a change of lifestyle which i am willing to do because i intend to grow old in good health as i watch my daughter walk down the aisle.

Lastly I hope and pray to be financially stable in 2014, to be debt free with savings of P100000K ... i dont how to achieve this but i've got to the best way i  can !

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My DIY 2014 Planner

This is the time of year when  people  try to  get as  many stickers  as they can to get  the Starbucks Planner ...  Since  I can't  afford to buy all those coffee,    I've  decided to make my own...    At  least  with my  Planner, I am in command.. I can put whatever pictures,  captions and   sections   I feel  applicable to my New  Life as full time Mom and Writer... Looking forward  2014  with  all the opportunity it  brings  with my Planner !

A Different Perspective

I've been feeling sad the past couple of days and as a result have been blogging negative vibes and insights. Nothing much changed on my situation as  of the moment, i'm still lost, in debt, depressed and penny less. But today I've decided to try a different approach ... to be positive, grateful and optimistic because at the end of the day, i should still be thankful becuse i am alive and I've got my family with me..
Let me start this new approach  by thanking the Lord for this day, spending the day with julia in her intrams ... watch her play games and enjoy group games and try her best to.make new friends. I know it'll take a few more tries before she can finally find a bestfriend she can call her own... but i know she'll be lucky to have one later on.
Today i feel so happy and proud to see her participate in group games. So what if she needs to work on her speed and coordination... i am just happy she is having fun. Last night we went to a friend's family gathering and she gamely played with the young kids . I'm happy that she's getting comfy with other kids and having fun ! Soon she'll have a barkada of her own.

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A Relaxing stress free day

I am thankful for this simple stress free day ... the best part was having coffee and toasted bread while listening to the chirping of the birds ... simple joys of life ....

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Lucky to have the Best Mentor

Today I was in cloud 9 because of the good reviews I recieved from my Mentor, Tita A.... she was my first headwriter, confidante and Mom rolled into one.  There was a time we parted ways when i decided to take a back seat due to matters of the heart, and eventually started a family life. And when we she moved to a different network we seldom saw each other but the love did not falter.

This year i had issues with my network  who treated me badly. And just like a wounded daughter ,  i ran to her waiting arms for comfort and strength. Indeed she welcomed me to her team and fought for me .

I may years of writing experience and an award to boot but the best reward ever was to hear her say " that was a good script and  I AM BACK ! "

Love u Tita A....

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Thank you for the simple joys

Day started out late as both julia and I tried to put in a few more time lying in bed this lazy sat morning. We finally got our butts moving for a quick trip to the grocery to buy stuff and my korea-novela series .....

Thank you for this relaxing day and try to be as worry free as possible. Tom is a brand new day as we look forward to breakfast with my siblings .....another bonding time for julia and  i with my family ...
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Thankful for Work

Today i went to my MBAP Creative Mtg to discuss story for upcoming weeks. Admittedly, i am a bit wary because upto now i am.still waiting for my next assignment, not to mention my pay .... and when they said that there's a possibility that the show might be cut short the more i became nervous because this is technically my bread and butter. I guess this is  where faith should set in. Learn to trust and believe that good things will come... we just have to believe.

So for now i am thankful that i have a show to write ....  show to be proud of and show to hold on to .... thanks to Tita A and to the bes creative team Gin, Glay, Bel, Paul, Jessie and Patrick !!!!!

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When Sadness sets in ....

I have been feeling the blues from time to time like a roller coaster ride for quite sometime now. From the day i was ordered bed rest by my doctor upto this minute where i lay wide awake  beside my princess, sadness sets in...  when i told hubby i feel.depressed and he asked me why, i couldn't give a clear answer....  if you think about i have no reason to feel sad, and more importantly i have no reason to feel depressed compared to the victims of super typhoon yolanda or with what an officemate is going thru right now, spending 55 days in the hospital  due.to her hubby's illness .... but  i cant hide or deny it,  bec bottomline is i am not happy with where i am right now ...   i am just hoping and praying that I'm just going thru a phase, and that sooner or later,.things will be better again ....

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I feel :(

I know i shouldn't feel sad at all bec I am lucky and blessed that we we're not affected by the super typhoon, and that me and my familg is in the best of health but cant seem to shake off the blues away ...

Lord I pray for good days to come ...

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Feeling Bothered

Wish I could just   shrug off  stuff  in my mind that's been bothering me....    downside   of having  a lot  of time in your hands... you tend to " Overthink  Things" and  feel guilty about it :(

Another Insomia Attack

Its 4:15am and i'm still wide awake, the downside of resigning from my day job, my insomia came back. Just when i've lessen my coffee and soda in take , the caffeine in my system seems to be working overtime.

Being awake the whole night makes me realize the importance of living healthy ... makes me commit to loose weight so i can enjoy life with my hubby and princess .

So starting today its going to be a lifestyle change for me. I know its not easy but i will have to do it one day at a time. This will be my mantra, my christmas gift to myself and my family . PROMISE

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Hope I wont be Treated the same...

I went to Pizza Hut for a quick snack after doing errands when a rich looking family  ( the couple were busy playing w/ their gadgets while waiting for their orders) sat right nexr to my table.
I noticed that the Lola handed over her senior citizen card along with her payment for her order in advance and the Daddy accepted it w/o hesitation. I couldn't help but wish i wont experience the same treatment from my love ones when i grow old. Pains to see that the young Dad could not even cover the P99 meal for the lola of the family .... hay .... pagdating nga naman sa bayaran walang magulang !

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Almost There ....

I've been praying for the past couple of days to give me the strength to make the Big Leap of Faith @ 40, to let go of the day job / call center job and concentrate on writing and business. I just need to talk to Tita A for confirmation and I'm almost there ... Tom I should make the right decision .

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A Lot In My Mind ...

It's 2:20 am and I am still wide awake. I am not sure if its the caffeine overload or  i just have tons of things in my mind ...You see i have made a big switch by transfering to GMA early this month and since then I have  wrote a whole week worth of script.  Though it may not be the best script to impress the big bosses but at least its a start ....

Now  I find myself in a crossroad again, to go back to work next week or to pursue full time.writing and just to guide julia since she's having a hard time in school lately... and the biggest factor is  when she asks me not to go back to.work  anymore. It pains my heart to leave her in the mornings again... and there's a big thug when she says " sa house na lang si mommu, magsulat na lang si Mommy " .  How I wish I  can Just give in just like  that.

That's why I've been praying all night for guidance and strength to take the Big Leap... I know all I have to do is trust and The Lord will help and guide me to the Right Path

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Special Cupcakes

  When  I first saw  our  dear Yaya   Bem   make  creations out of  clay I knew that   she has a  big potential   with cupcake  creations. With  little  money to spare, we decided to make a few  samples  to share.  I  hope this will be another  fruitful venture,

 

 

 

 

Goodbye Kapamilya, Hello Kapuso

After being treated badly by my CDG Group and after series of disappointments, i finally found the courage to take the Big Leap and transfer networks.  It's scary leaving your comfort zone, starting anew especially if your not young anymore but once you are treated badly you owe it to yourself to look for better opportunities and move on.

I'm very lucky there are friends willing to help and welcome me with arms wide. Full of love and support, the fears and uncertainties slowly vanished. Its still a long way to go but I'm looking forward to this new journey ... but for now, let's start the pen moving !!