To Thee I Am Humbled...

Here I am Lord, feeling down and humbled right before you...  I am sorry for feeling the blues.. feeling depressed because it seems like I'm the state of nowhere...  Yes I am not down on the bottom pit but neither am I moving.. it seems like I'm not going anywhere.  That my life has become like a stagnant water, not growing, just on a standstill....until I came across one of the posts of Courageous Caitie... where strangers are fell in line just to say goodbye to our dear Caitie... And when one couple reached the front and saw Feliz, it was even her who reminded the couple that whenever we feel down just remember Jesus loves you...   Indeed when things go wrong, when one feels  a void inside, just pray... a simple prayer will do..  say what's inside your heart and he'll answer you the best possible way. It may not be grand or be a miracle, but rest assured He will answer you back. In my case, I got my answer from an FB post maybe because Kuya Jess knows I'm always online :)

Praying for Dear Courageous Caitie

When  I first saw her page on FB  thru a friend I got curious with her condition and read her page. From then on, my  day is not complete without checking for updates, hoping and praying she'll get better soon.

I know how difficult this is to Caitie's parents...  It is never easy holding a sick child in your arms. And this may sound a cliche, but Moms and Dads would often pray to spare his/her child the pain, if only we can take it away so they would feel better. Often, parents would say " si Mommy na lang ang magkasakit....  huwag na ikaw".

Caitie's condition have touched me in a different way. She may not know it but she taught me how to pray in a very simple and sincere way. And  I find myself praying for her every now and then whenever a read a post or see an update about her condition. I may not attend mass every week or read the bible but I believe the Lord can hear me pray for her.  

I am also in awe on how  Caitie and her family hold on the their Faith... Despite the hardships and trials, their Faith never wavered, instead it becomes stronger each step of the way. They are probably one of the strongest family I've ever seen. And I am confident that the Lord will bless them and hear their prayers along with all of us who are cheering them on the sidelines.

It's still a rough and bumpy road ahead for the Lucas family... and to date, we are all praying because Caitie is in critical condition.  I have shed a tear or two praying for her and  hoping for a miracle soon...  but the most touching prayer I saw this morning is when the family posted "LET YOUR WILL BE DONE".... 

So let me end this post with a simple prayer for Our Little Warrior...  Lord,  we come before you begging for healing for our dear Caitie. Please, touch her and heal so you can spare her young body from pain. We ask for a miracle of healing and I know with you,  this will be done.

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I just learned that our Dear Caitie has finally joined Our Creator 10 mins ago... It breaks my heart to see her go but I know she's in a better place now, free from pain and all the hardships.  She is now with Jesus and all the Angels welcoming her in their midst. 

Thank Caitie for inspiring me ... for teaching me  and for helping me be closer to our dear Saviour. God bless your soul, our Dear Courageous Caitie!

*** Photo credits :  Photos above were grabbed  from Courageous Caitie Webpage. 

Chiiling on a Hot Summer Night

How do you chill on a Hot Summer Night? Just drive around town and head off to the nearest "Soda-Fountain" ( So 80's) store...  Actually its icebergs along Timog .. the only place open on A Good Friday.

Goodbye Nanu....

Since last Monday,  I couldn't seem to shake you off my  mind...  The moment I learned about your passing away,  memories of our younger years kept coming back... With you around, it's always non-stop chicka about life and love.  I remember the time I visited you  in the hospital during your college days ...  You told me about an unlikely incident where your ex and your current flame both in the same room with you :) . The last time I saw you,  we were by the church driveway,  you were just on your way out after hearing mass. You told me about graduating from CRC and went to  Ateneo Law School to apply but the staff  refused to give you an application form and told you to ask your mom to get a form for herself instead. It took awhile before you were able to convince that staff that you're old enough to attend Law School.  And though i haven't seen you in decades,  i know the bond of friendship we shared never changed.

When  I spoke to Phoebe and learned that you were in pain all through out your ordeal,  i couldn't help but feel sad. Just like an Ate,  I wish you were spared from the pain this highfalutin disease brings. But all these are gone now... you're in a better place, rejoicing in Heaven with the Big Boss. I bet  you're having a grand time debating with the Angels about life here on earth.

Your last night  with us brought back old friends together... Just like the good old days circa 1990's... It was nice seeing familiar faces again.. Jappy, Ems, Ned, Ryan and Ian...  People I haven't seen for more than 2 decades.  Although it wasn't a happy occasion,  at least you gave us a reason to smile as we bid you goodbye.

So this is it, Nanu...  Time to let go and say goodbye.  Thank you for the friendship and the wonderful memories...  I know someday we'll see each other again and make non-stop Chicka!

Until then My Little Nanu.....  

Different Colors of QC Circle

These photos made me smile and somehow lessen the stress I was burdened due to yaya/domestic issues. A short walk, some fresh air, a sincere prayer and My Princess'  unwavering love took away the negative vibes for that night... Truly some good things in life are still for free :)

Going Back to Basics

Today I'd like to start something new... I'd like to start writing again...  Create something out of the blue...  just do free-flowing writing. .. and try photo-journaling ... something to keep me going and fuel the fire again :)

Journey to Rediscovering Self

I'd like to embark on a new journey...  to try and go back to the basics and find that groove again. I want to be excited with writing..  and be proud of my works again...   I should start somewhere.. soon!

How to Write Again

This has  been my dilemma when 2016 ushered in..  I have moments that I am lost and doesn't know where or how to start...  I have cried, laughed, felt my heart  did  a couple of flips but at the end, when you're faced with a blank paper, you don't how to write again...

I need to find my jive..  and  I need to do it now!!!!

Dear Lord,

Hear I am again, praying for guidance. I am in the middle of my script and I couldn't seem to find the right groove. Please touch my mind, my heart and my hand that I may write the right words and scenes.  Let me be your instrument in touching the lives of others. I know I have a purpose why you placed me in this kind of work. Please guide me to do my thing,

AMEN

SNAKES AND LADDERS CHALLENGE

I was not able to play this board game when I was a kid.... well come to think of it, I didn't play any board games at home because my siblings found it boring (setbacks for having 6 brothers and a sis who's not interested in board games). I remember playing monopoly with neighbors because they have one.
I recently introduced Julia to snakes and ladders when she got one from a bday loot bag a couple of weeks ago and she liked it
Yesterday her dad gave her a bigger version and we've been playing for a couple of games now.  Although it's 3 decades late, I get to enjoy playing this game just as my princess. Next  on our list is Chinese checkers :)

COFFEE OVERLOAD

If one wants coffee but on a budget, you can try Breadtalk's Cafe-Latte or Capuccino. It's slightly cheaper than Starbucks but taste is almost the same. For less than a hundred, you'll definitely  get your caffeine fix with their regular cup.  Paired best with their bread and pastries as well :)

A Card that made a Big Difference

I found this 17-year old card from Chiechay encouraging me to follow my dream! Thanks girl for telling me to take the big leap..  Miss u!

A Card that made a Big Difference

I found this 17-year old card from Chiechay encouraging me to follow my dream! Thanks girl for telling me to take the big leap..  Miss u!

A Card that made a Big Difference

I found this 17-year old card from Chiechay encouraging me to follow my dream! Thanks girl for telling me to take the big leap..  Miss u!

My Princess growing up so fast ...

My Princess and I went to the Mall yesterday for our usual weekend mall date. When we got to the accessories section she saw a display of hats and asked me to buy her one. When I asked why are buying a hat for P350 she proudly answers because I need a funky hat ! I tried to dissuade her, telling her we don't need an expensive hat and she started posing like a teenage model. So how can you say no to a beautiful Princess in a funky hat???

100 Days to Wellness

Since I've started this journey to wellness I've discovered new ways to replace rice in my diet. Everyday is a challenge  and I hope I can overcome the cravings ... I know I can do it just one day at a time...  #150lbsgoal

Journey to Wellness

Journey to Wellness

Journey To Wellness !

A couple of weeks ago I started feeling g numbness and tingling sensation in may hands and legs so I went to see the doctor.
First order of the doctor was for my to loose weight to avoid further problems. She also asked me to undergo xrays and blood / lab tests to ensure I wasn't suffering from diabetes... Luckily, blood sugar is OK but SGPT showed I have fatty liver.  A medical condition that can be treated with proper diet and weight lost.

Eager to be well and healthy, I bought a weighing scale to monitor my weight and progress ... Lo and Behold, got the shock of my life when I saw how heavy I've become ... This indeed a wake up call for me... to lower my weight to at least 150 by end of the year...  Its a big challenge but I've got push my self. And I know I can do it!

My Afternoon Pleasure

My Afternoon Bliss is gathering all my notebooks ( Pink- Finances, Planner for the Household, Planner for work, Pocket
planner)  and updating them one by one as i catch on old films or koreanovela :) I feel so lucky that I get to do the stuff I love most in between deadlines !

Keep the Faith

Keep the Faith !
It is so difficult if you are living with
people who has unpredictable mood swings... One moment they are super sweet, the next min they could get grouchy or worse, they couldn't care less and act as if u don't exist ... The only thing that will keep u going is your Faith that this too shall pass .... And you'll just pick up the pieces and move on.